The Shooter Among Us
CONTENT WARNING: This story contains very graphic language and potentially disturbing content. Particularly for anyone with a personal connection to the tragedy at Sandy Hook, reader discretion is advised. I have not edited any of the below comments from the user in question, other than to remove account names of other users, and to add emphasis in bold.
The perpetrator of the 2012 Sandy Hook Elementary School shooting left an online footprint that has been well-publicized: as I’ve covered before, he edited wikipedia pages for mass shooters, posted on firearms forums looking for the most lethal weaponry he could legally acquire, and frequented a private forum dedicated to school shootings.
On that forum, he gave links to Youtube videos multiple times, so we know that he frequented the ubiquitous video content website, home to over one billion users according to Youtube press releases.
However there is one Youtube account that is special to the Sandy Hook shooting. The user’s comments touch upon nearly every moral, social, and political issue that we now associate with the event: school security, mental illness, bullying, psychiatric medication, firearms laws, and more. This account posted no video clips of their own, but is also noteworthy for the many threatening, graphic, and enraged comments it left on the videos posted by others, until the account suddenly ceased activity in 2012.
I was advised to look into this account earlier this month by Michał Wiśniewski, founder of the student filmmaking group SILKRAT.
Last fall, I wrote a detailed review of an obscure Polish film called Bullet Time, produced by SILKRAT in 2007. My only knowledge of the film was that the perpetrator of the Sandy Hook Elementary School shooting, writing as “Smiggles,” had endorsed it on a forum that he frequented between early 2010 and February of 2012, “Super Columbine Massacre RPG Discussion.” (this forum is sometimes referred to as “Shocked Beyond Belief,” but was not called that until after the period when Lanza frequented it.)
The film itself chronicles the preparations made by two aspiring school shooters, and concludes with the shooting itself: tastefully brief, and off-camera.
Michał, having just learned of this tangential connection between his film and the Sandy Hook shooter, wrote to express both his grief at the news (SILKRAT has released a statement on the matter here), and also his concern over a particular Youtube user that had repeatedly commented on the pages for the English-subtitled version of Bullet Time, using the ironic account name “fuckcomments” to post his statements.
A comment posted on “Bullet Time”
The comments this user left on Bullet Time, while unpleasant, would not be particularly noteworthy by themselves. It’s only after looking deep into the user’s comment history, all across Youtube, that a portrait of the person at the keyboard becomes clear.
Having reviewed over 400 comments by this user, I can say that the founder of SILKRAT was right to be suspicious of fuckcomments: the person at the keyboard was Adam Lanza.
Part I – Evidence and Confluence
On August 10th 2011, Adam Lanza was participating in a conversation on the Columbine forum, under the subject “Reveal Yourself!”, in which other users were either posting photos of themselves or teasing doing so. Lanza’s contribution was to provide a link to a specific scene in Bullet Time, in which the “shooter” characters advise their viewers to use a fake identity on that same forum. In doing so, he was essentially calling the other users careless.
This reminds me of Bullet Time.
More of you really should see it. I think it’s a lot better than Zero Day.
Today, the Youtube page for part five (of 12) of Bullet Time, the very same URL that Adam Lanza linked to as “Smiggles” above, has a view count of 400. That he included a timestamp for exactly the line of dialogue that he meant to share proves that Adam watched the film and paid attention when doing so.
Even this quite low view count of 400 is inflated, because attention to it increased after the “Smiggles” story broke on this blog last year. Curious readers clicked on the link, knowing in retrospect that an infamous mass shooter provided it. Looking at other clips from the series, ones which Lanza did not link to and which thus didn’t gain the same level of attention, the view count is as low as 208.
In 2011, the number of views would have been even lower.
The point is, at least one of those 208 views was Adam Lanza. And in that very small population, Adam Lanza is a very peculiar person. He stands out.
The simplest way to know that fuckcomments is Adam Lanza is to look at which videos that user was interested in enough to comment on, and recognize the improbable ways in which fuckcomments’ activity corresponds with Adam Lanza’s unconventional life and preoccupations, as well as his activity as “Smiggles.” I will be outlining a portion of these connections here, and because it’s important to be certain that this account belongs to Lanza, it will be a large portion.
Three School Shooters, and a “favorite”
The user fuckcomments engaged in a conversation with another user (apparently an acquaintance of Kip Kinkel) on the video “Kip Kinkel’s Confession 4“, which was actually an audio clip of school shooter Kip Kinkel confessing, set to a still photo. Note that the first comment below does not come from fuckcomments, but is replied-to by them:
YoutubeUser1 4 years ago @YoutubeUser2: undiagnosed and untreated, in all liklihood Kip would never have committed these horrible acts, for which he is more guilt-ridden and remorseful than most of us could ever imagine. I know what a kind and good person Kip is and nothing will change my view on that. 20.7.10 3:43 AM EDT
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser2: most school shooters and killers are “”nice guys””. Funny,polite,calm,cool, talented, personable, easy to talk to. It is no wonder you get along with Kip, I’m sure he fits the criteria. That doesn’t mean he won’t blow your head off when you come in the door. The fact that someone is nice and realizes they’ve done wrong and feel the guilt associated with it, in no way determines if they will do it again.”
“YouTubeUser1 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: Nor does it make it that any more likely that they will kill again. Does the police officer or soldier who kills (irrespective of the “”duty”” aspect) have to be considered as one who might likely kill again because he has killed before? I DON””T THINK SO. So why should Kip be forever held in suspicion of killing again? U seem to have forgotten the mental disorder that Kip was suffering from, untreated. Antipsychotics can work marvels and with Kip they have. 20.7.10 8:29 AM”
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser1: ….yea police officers dont wait in the bathroom for their family to come home only to obliterate them with a .22 rifle headshot and a .22 handgun spray with a finishing headshot execution style a minute later. Then they don’t go into a public place full of children and shoot random kids killing them….your argument is not logical, I know you are his friend but he is comparable with the most dangerous killers to ever exist. Never forget that.
YoutubeUser1 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: Well sir, you are welcome to your opinion and so am I. Your statement doesn’t really address my comment. Because you or I haven’t killed before is no assurance that we won’t do so in the future. I wish you luck in your future. 22.8.10 5:41 AM EDT
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser1: well then lets band together and become the next Eric and Dylan!!!! Haha”
fuckcomments also left two comments on the video “asa coon Cleveland Police Release School Shooting Video 1.” Asa Coon was 14-year-old student who went on a shooting rampage at SuccessTech alternative high school in Cleveland, Ohio in 2007. No one except Coon himself lost his life, and as a consequence this is a relatively obscure school shooting, as unfortunate as that concept is. (Note that two of the comments here are replies to another user, but the other side of the conversation is no longer there:)
fuckcomments 4 years ago: when mental illness reaches the final point, this happens.
fuckcomments 4 years ago: @otheruser1 oh he tried
fuckcomments 4 years ago: A teen punched Coon in the face for bumping into him. When the teen walked away Coon shot him in the abdomen. 17-year-old Darnell, suffered a graze gunshot wound to the elbow in the same hallway. a social studies teacher, was shot in the chest after Coon entered his classroom. A second teacher,, was shot in the back of his shoulder while in a hallway evacuating his students to safety.The shooting ended when Coon entered another room and fatally shot himself in the right side of his head.”
fuckcomments 4 years ago: @otheruser1 Asa wasn’t a killer, he didn’t want to die. He was so fucking angry with his life and the world around him that he decided to kill himself and take a few pieces of shit with him, Cho on the other hand had a plan to massacre as many as he could before he died, that wasn’t Asa’s plan, just to die and take some fucks with him and get revenge on his school. Maybe you will meet one of these shooters one day, at school. The place you think is “”safe”” haha….Hope he fails then?
In the official report on the Sandy Hook shooting, the Connecticut State Police describe some of the files found on the USB drive in Lanza’s bedroom closet.
CSP Report, Book 4, file 00194691
Both the Asa Coon video and the Kip Kinkel audio were found on Lanza’s USB drive.
Furthermore, one of the comments left by fuckcomments on the Asa Coon video provides another link to Lanza. The phrase “take a few pieces of shit with him” is borrowed from the suicide note of another mass shooter, Robert Hawkins (the surveillance video for this shooting, as shown above, was found in the same folder as the other two videos) :
“I just don’t want to be a burden on the ones that I care for my entire life I just want to take a few pieces of shit with me. ” – Robert Hawkins
Shortly after writing this note, Robert Hawkins went to the Westroads Mall in Omaha, Nebraska and murdered a number of people, then killed himself.
The event is commonly referred to as the Westroads Mall shooting, and the wikipedia page associated with this event is one Adam Lanza edited, under his moniker kaynbred.
On the Columbine forum, as Smiggles, Lanza stated that Robert Hawkins was one of his “favorite shooters.”
Lanza, arguing that the song “Pumped Up Kicks” is not about Robert Hawkins, despite a popular rumor
These are not the only instances where the videos commented on by this user correspond with evidence found in the Lanza home. On another video, “NIU Shooter – Planned Shooting for Weeks” covering a different school shooter, fuckcomments wrote two comments. The first is a reply to another user, and the second is in response to the title of the video:
“YoutubeUser03 6 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser04: Anything can be used to kill anyone … people kill people, not guns. You’re probably a liberal pussy whose never seen a gun or spent a day in rural Montana, Texas, Wyoming, Dakota’s, Utah … I’ve spent 10 years between Montana, Wyoming, and Texas. Stop at the diner to have breakfast there’s a dozen old timers with their 45 on their hip, causing NO problems. Hell, their wives carry a 38 Snub in their purse right next to their wallet! Do you ever hear of upstanding citizens killing people? No!”
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser03: Yea, that would be filed under accidental death. There are TONS of them. Ha ha as if humans have the intelligence to handle such weapons without accidents. As if.
fuckcomments 4 years ago weeks? You mean, YEARS.
On another video associated with this same shooting, “A Glimpse Inside the NIU Shooter’s Hotel Room“, the user commented again:
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser05:
They go on the drugs in the first place because they are having thoughts about killing people like you and are depressed, the drugs do not cause these problems. The drugs were just postponing this event. He stopped taking the drugs and his thoughts and urges to kill came back, so strongly that he shot everyone and himself. Now is it the drug that cause this event? Or was this the reason he wanted to take the drugs in the first place, to try and stop this act from becoming real?
After the Sandy Hook shooting, police found a newspaper article about this shooting in the Lanza Home.
CSP Official Report, Book 2, file 00194623
This is the article:
CSP Assorted Files – “Meehan – suspect’s house evidence”
Legos and Gamefaqs
These instances of shared activity are not just found with the kaynbred and Smiggles personas that Lanza used to discuss mass shooters. On the video “Faxanadu – Hidden Mode“, the user wrote:
fuckcomments 5 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser06: why piss and shit on our childhood games with these new age trash titles? i say make new ones and leave the old games where they are.
Under the user name “blarvink” on the gaming website gamefaqs.com, Lanza wrote the following on the thread “Bring Lego Island back!?”:
fuckcomments, meanwhile, also commented on several other videos features Lego-based video games :
Boom Headshot FPS Doug Lego Wolf3D Wolfenstein
LegoWolf3D mappers wanted! Plus first look at a female nazi
Lanza’s appreciation of Legos, and Lego-associated video games, is also evident in the lists of items found in his home and on his hard drive:
The Killing of America
Approximately four years ago, the user commented on a clip from the 1981 “mondo” documentary on gun violence, “The Killing of America.” The comment that appears on the Youtube clip “Killing of America Bobby Kennedy” is perhaps a recognition of the writer’s own similarities to Sirhan Sirhan (note: this is one of several comments that is currently not viewable on Youtube; see notice at the end of this article.)
fuckcomments 4 years ago: The writing tells ALL. RFK MUST DIE is the first thing he wrote. Classic deluded psycho sitting in a room fantasizing. Not mind control. Just mental illness.
The Killing of America was mentioned at least twice by Lanza on the Columbine forum. Both times, it was brought up by Smiggles alone, without any prompting at all. This was clearly a film that Lanza thought about, and wrote about.
from the thread “Excellent mid/late-’90s mass murderer documentary”
The highlighted link would lead to Lanza’s “spreadsheet” of shooters, while the “Killing of America” reference is a the bottom. Neither thread was ever archived, just this index page showing their titles.
Nobody Thinks About Me
On February 24th 2012, in one of his final posts to the Columbine forum, Smiggles started a topic “I came across a Chris Helms YouTube comment.” His post links to a Youtube page for a song by Michale Graves entitled “Nobody Thinks About Me”: a song about school shootings, with lyrics from the perspective of a school shooter. Lanza is sharing with the forum that he believes one of the comments on the Youtube video is from on an actual school shooter, Chris Helms:
“I was looking through the comments on the “Michale Graves – Nobody Thinks About Me” video and did a double take when I thought I recognized someone.
even though their solution to being bullied wasnt the best of choices, i still feel worse for eric and dylan than anyone else in that school! their lives were so bad, they couldnt go a full day without being physically abused by jocks or made fun of by anyone else. their nicknames were the outcasts! but god, they kill 13 people and bullies still dont undertand the consequences of their actions! there have already been 5 school shootings in the US this year! one at harvard! people need to lay off
BboyZero100 1 year ago (4 likes)
He was probably talking about Mitchell Heisman’s 9/18/2010 suicide, which means that he would’ve typed this very shortly before his 9/21/2010 school shooting.
When we click this link (cached above), we do indeed find the comment that Adam Lanza quoted. We also find a comment from another familiar user: fuckcomments. Here, he is responding to still another user’s comment:
YoutubeUser007 5 years ago: I know it’s like people didn’t even learn their lesson. They don’t understand that the major assholes in school (preps, jocks, ex…) are the kids that started Columbine. There school was so bad and still is today. I don’t get it, why do they find it funny to make fun of kids that are different? It’s fucking stupid…
fuckcomments 3 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser007: Either two reasons, they feel better than everyone else because their parents put them up on a special platform above all else, or they are victims themselves of some sort of bullying and are venting it onto others…..or just for fun and to laugh because they are bored and are a human being. Eric and Dylan were known to pick on kids as well. They were just two homicidal guys that found each other in a situation where they both felt a common enemy they felt powerless against.
The comment he was replying to is today five years old, but fuckcomments’s reply is from only three years ago, consistent with when we know Adam Lanza (Smiggles) was watching this exact same comment page: February of 2012.
School Shooting games
The Columbine forum that Lanza visited as Smiggles was ostensibly dedicated to the homebrew video game Super Columbine Massacre RPG!, which was a controversial title for years after its release. One Youtube video, “Easily Accessible School Shooting Games”, covers just these sorts of games, and even shows the same landing page that Lanza would have seen when he first found the Columbine forum.
On this same Youtube video, fuckcomments posted:
fuckcomments 3 years ago: virtuaman made 3 school shooting games! Those are brutal!
“virtuaman” is the online name of a person who, as this user states, made a school shooting game. In addition to this, virtuaman was an active member of the Columbine forum frequented by Adam Lanza at the same time. Their posts appear in the some of the same conversations, such as the topic “Jared Loughner(Tuscon Massacre) being compared to Columbine?” (a screenshot of this thread can be found here.)
Kimveer Gill and “hang fire”
In the course of that online conversation, which took place in February of 2011, the topic shifted away from Tucson, Arizona shooter Jared Loughner, and became a debate about Dawson College shooter Kimveer Gill. Lanza’s contribution to the thread introduced the theory that Kimveer Gill experienced “hang fire” during his rampage:
I haven’t looked into this much in the past couple of years, but I can think of a few reasons as to why he killed 1 and injured 19. I vaguely remember reading that most of the injuries were inflicted to limbs, which are rarely fatal. I also remember him complaining about this:
“When My Rifle Misfires And I Gotta Stand There For 60 Seconds Waiting For It To Fire, Or Not”.
He was describing this:
It’s uncommon for high-quality ammunition to hang fire. If he was using the same cheap cartridges for his massacre, then the bullets were likely full metal jacketed.
Beyond that, his 9mm Beretta Cx4 Storm innately wasn’t a particularly effective firearm. The difference in velocity between a 9mm rifle and 9mm pistol is usually 15% at best. The benefits which a 9mm rifle has for a novice are basically its reduced recoil and greater distance between the front and rear sights. It allows faster and more accurate shots, although that was inconsequential for Kimveer Gill if he was aiming as poorly as I assume he was.
That comment was posted to the Columbine forum on February 6th, 2011.
Meanwhile, on the youtube video “A good reason not to use surplus AMMO M-48 Mauser” which features a young man firing cheap ammunition (resulting 3 misfires out of 5 attempts) fuckcomments left this brief comment:
fuckcomments 4 years ago: I was scared of hang fires shooting you in the side.
This comment was posted to Youtube on February 6th, 2011: the same day that Smiggles posted about hang fires on the Columbine forum:
This text can currently be viewed by searching Google for the phrase “I was scared of hang fires” (quotes included) and then, on the results page, clicking the link labeled “”repeat the search with the omitted results included” and flipping to page 2 of the expanded results.
The topic of Dawson College shooter Kimveer Gill pops up several times in fuckcomments’s conversations. On “Kimveer Gill- Documentary” he posts multiple times:
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser08: Ah yes, there are a few things in this video, Kimveer was not “”attending the school”” for one thing. And yea I also do not agree that his choice of lifestyle “”gothic”” had anything to do with the spree. I believe that Kimveer was isolated in high school because of his racial difference. Not so much on purpose, but that is just how it goes sometimes, around this time Columbine shootings occurred and I am sure he took notice. Since then he was harboring a massacre fantasy. lost control of it..
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: He lost control because of a large variety of variables. His depression was worsening and he was drinking more alcohol to combat it. The help he tried to get for himself from doctors wasn’t helping him feel better and I think this was the final thing that showed him that nothing anyone ever does will ever make him feel better, hopeless and futureless, he put his long awaiting fantasy to life. To replicate Columbine. He even wanted to do his massacre on April 20 to match the date of Columbine
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to to YoutubeUser10 : Yes obviously it is a reason to kill people if that’s what he did. I think its time to start saying “”The way society treats each other will lead to people like Kimveer Gill.”” not “”We can do whatever we want and no one has a reason to kill me if I do whatever I want,”” Yea well history tells a different story where his condition IS enough to be a reason to kill people. Denying it won’t do you any good. People will do this again one day for the same reasons. Its real….
On another video dedicated to this shooting, “September 13th 2006 Dawson College shooting”, fuckcomments responded to another user who claimed to have witnessed it and escaped.
YoutubeUser11 5 years ago ·yah i was kinda in this shooting and i almost saved a girl but the bullet hit her and what did i do run away i shuld of stopd the bullet but i couldnt it broke me down in tears i ran kinda wants me to kill myself i shuld of stopd dat bullet and put it in me den she be here but i wouldnt but my life is worthless so i shuld of stopd it and tooken the guy down also i really hate myself for dis day and forever its in my mind as i speak of it i cry and i really should of took him down to the ground..”
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser11: I am sorry you were a part of this shooting, I have been studying all the school shooters for many many years. I can say that if you stopped to help the girl he would have most surely shot the both of you, statistically in school shootings anyone who is helping the wounded is shot by the shooter as well, and they make sure to do this. I am not sure why but it happens. You would most likely both be dead if you tried to do anything, the shooter is driven to kill everyone. take care
Lanza did indeed study all school shooters for many years. Like the Westroads Mall shooting, the wikipedia page for the Dawson College shooting was another that Lanza edited as kaynbred. There, he corrected a typo on the firearm that Kimveer Gill used, joking that the ammunition type was weak, but not that weak:
On another Dawson College-related video “Shooting at Dawson College – killer’s mom call”, fuckcomments was less sympathetic to the survivors, and seemed to have been set off by the video’s statement from the aunt of the student who was murdered, in which she stated that she had “no sympathy” for the shooter’s mother:
fuckcomments 4 years ago: Rude of the victims family to snarl at the mother like she had anything to do with it. If they knew anything about rampages they would realize that things like this happen every year! Yes every year, some guy, with nothing, goes on a rampage, and kills all you little shits that take everything you have for granted. And never once has it been the parents fault. Eric and Dylan from columbine said and I roughly quote. “Don’t blame our parents, they are the best parents anyone could ask for.”
One very peculiar comment from this user is found on the video “Bow legged female – no bowing of legs soon!”
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser12: this is bullshit, no human should put their feet together and then look down and gauge if they have a problem. Humans stand with their feet around should width apart, not side by side. This is just a ploy to scare all you people into getting your legs cut in half and twisted so they can make money ! Have fun..
Given fuckcomments’s other interests, this seems a bizarre and random topic to show such a strong opinion on. Yet, the same strange preoccupation with stances is noted in Adam Lanza, in the report from the Office of the Child Advocate. It reports that in late 2006, when being examined at Yale, “AL was reported to be placing limits on his mother’s behavior (e.g. by not allowing her to lean on things because it was improper).” (pg. 49)
Adam Lanza was diagnosed with Aspergers disorder in 2005, when he was thirteen years old. The record of this diagnosis was published in last year’s report from Connecticut’s Office of the Child Advocate (in which the shooter is consistently referred to as AL):
AL is a 13 year old boy who I have evaluated on 9/30/05, 10/18/05, and 11/15/05. He meets the DSM IV criteria for Asperger’s Disorder. AL presents with a significant social impairment including lack of peer relationships, avoidance of eye to eye gaze, lack of understanding of how to play or interact with peers. He avoids peer interaction and is very anxious around strangers. He lacks empathy and tends to employ a very rigid systematic thought process. He demonstrates intense emotional rage when his systematic world is threatened due to his extreme need for routine. He tends to take a very literal interpretation of written and verbal material. Concepts like metaphor, symbolism and intangible references are exceedingly difficult for him and can cause significant distress. He tends to have an overly precise quality of speech and tends to not comprehend emotional expression in others. He is phobic [of] physical contact, even with his own mother who has been his most constant and consistent individual in his life. -“Shooting at Sandy Hook Elementary School” Report of the Office of the Child Advocate, pg 41-42
However, the report also notes that Lanza “disagreed with his Asperger’s diagnosis.”
In a March 2014 interview with Andrew Solomon, published by The New Yorker, the shooter’s father Peter Lanza confirmed this:
“Adam was not open to therapy,” Peter told me. “He did not want to talk about problems and didn’t even admit he had Asperger’s.”
The user fuckcomments exhibits this same position on Aspergers on several videos, such as the interaction he has with another user on the LIVESTRONG.com hosted video ”Living With Asperger’s Syndrome”:
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser13: Some people are just different than others.I don’t think it means anything. Some people are just different. I don’t think half the people with aspergers actually have it. He names abilities to program video games, look kid I was programming video games when I was 7 in QBASIC it isn’t that impressive. This just leads to anti social behavior because kids around you are not on your “”level.”” To think it is aspergers is ridiculous, its just anti social behaviors from seclusion.
YoutubeUser13 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments : I love how you non-professional, neurotypical armchair psychs are so quick to dismiss ASD. Why? Do you want to belittle us and not feel guilty about it? To reduce your cognitive dissonance resulting from making fun of us by convincing yourself we’re “”faking it””? Or are you just mad that we don’t fit in the narrow, tiny box you call your worldview?
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser13: No I score high as an “”aspie”” on all the “”tests.”” I am not an aspie though. Many people who test as aspies and who think they are, are just normal people with uncommon interests. Nothing different about them they are just behaviorally different, that isn’t a disease.
On another video, simply entitled “Aspergers?” and featuring a young child seated and hitting his head, fuckcomments indicates that he used to do the same thing:
The Office of the Child Advocate’s report confirms that Adam Lanza did indeed engage in this same behavior when he was four years old:
Office of the Child Advocate report, page 17
World War II
In the same interview with Andrew Solomon where he had discussed Aspergers, Peter Lanza recalled that his son developed an interest in World War II history, as early as his middle school years:
When Adam entered middle school, he proudly took Peter to see it. “And talk about talkative: man, that kid, you couldn’t shut him up!” Peter said. In the years that followed, they would talk about politics. Adam was a fan of Ron Paul, and liked to argue economic theory. He became fascinated with guns and with the Second World War, and showed an interest in joining the military.
The user fuckcomments displays these same interests – guns and World War II – in abundance (the guns will covered in the next section.) On the page for “U.S.A. Terrorism! Hiroshima – A.B.D. nin Hirosima Katliamı”, he argues with another commenter over the justification for using atomic weapons against Japan. Their back-and-forth quickly turns nasty:
fuckcomments 5 years ago: terrorism that will actually save millions of lives like in this case is needed. The japanese would have dragged it on forever and so many more would die. The usa does this today, The USA killed more innocent people in IRAQ in the current war than in these 2 nuclear attacks. These civilian deaths however are not to save the planet from destruction, they are needless, hiroshima and nagasaki had to be done. the end.
YoutubeUser14 5 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: No. A nuclear device being detonated inside of Earth’s atmosphere was never necessary and should never have been carried out. Even in our own self interest, it was and remains folly. granted it probably saved Japan from becoming a divided nation like East and West Germany but this does not change the fact that nuclear armaments are weapons of mass murder, and mass murder is exactly what happened in Hiroshima and Nagasaki.
fuckcomments 5 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser14: it was either send an assault to japan wiping out the entire country in a suicidal death match with a crazy suicidal force with nothing to lose. The atomic bombs were dropped to stop that from happening, yea it was a sacrifice for the greater good, to imagine the amount dead in a normal battle that lasted a few years compared to the amount that died at hiroshima and nagasaki, the same amount of innocents died there as in your iraq war. so wtf do you care. lives were saved with these bombs…
YoutubeUser14 5 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: So, you’re saying that it’s alright to sacrifice civilian lives to save military lives. There is something wrong with your logic. Also, the fact that you use the “”Greater good”” argument on the subject of exploding a nuclear device INSIDE of earth’s atmosphere only shows your ignorance of the true implications. Radiation. Fallout. Nuclear Winter. The fact that they even tested them on earth’s surface is an atrocity in of itself, their use in war does not need to be defended by anyone. it is
YoutubeUser14 5 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser14: completely inexcusable, and you don’t even have to be a goody-two-shoes-PC-obsessed-pinko-crybaby to think so. I love America. I love the perpetuation of freedom and the war’s mission against fascism. But the deployment of nuclear weaponry will always be a black mark on the history of every country who tested them and America in particular for the dastardly act of dropping not one but two of them on civilians.
fuckcomments 5 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser14: you are so fucking dumb go read a book on world war 2 you fag ive followed that war since i was little. The atom bombs were 100% needed at that time, and yes our armies lives are more important than japanese civilians when Japan is vowing to never surrender. shut your dumb hole. if people listened to you we would all be dead. shut up go back to your anti-nuke bullshit when they test nukes all the time on earth. Your USA Iraq war just slaughtered more civilians than the atom bombs hypocrite.”
Evidence that Lanza studied World War II was also logged the Connecticut State Police as they searched the home after the Sandy Hook shooting. They found several books on the subject, apparently belonging to the shooter:
Caption: CSP Official Report files, book 7, file 00004051
The Sandy Hook shooter attended St. Rose of Lima, a private Catholic school, for a portion of his 7th grade year. However, he was not religious, which is cited in the Office of the Child Advocate report as the reason that he did not stay at the school. Yet, despite not believing in any religion, Adam was “obsessed” with religion:
A subsequent psychological evaluation conducted by the public school system indicated that AL became obsessed with religion while attending catholic school. The source for this information is not clear. The Yale Child Study Center psychiatrist’s report (see infra) in 2006 states that “AL disapproves of religion because it is ‘illogical’ . . . [which] proved the downfall of a brief placement at a small supportive Catholic parochial school.”
-Child Advocate report, citation 44
This same stance on religion comes through very clearly in fuckcomments’s comment history: he is not a believer, which he states plainly on the video “Rifqa Bary – “Christian Bitch Must Die””, and which leads to a brief and hostile exchange with another user:
fuckcomments 4 years ago: I converted from Religion to Intelligence.
“YoutubeUser15 4 years ago · in reply to YoutubeUser16″ That gives me the more reason to believe Muslims are controlled by demons. Demons work in the flesh of lost people to KILL STEAL & DESTROY. Ur god is the god of HATRED and BLOOD shed, which is Satan himself in disguise to fool & trick u to think & believe that to kill is an honor to Allah, yet it was the father of lies who u’ve been serving all along. There is power in the Name of Jesus Yeshua who is thus the Son of the Living God, NO ONE is above Christ! Seek TRUTH & be not decieved”
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser15: HAHAHAHA “”Demons”” Only a fool with no education believes in demons….. Study human psychology, criminal psychology….there are answers for the most disgusting crimes that have ever taken place, rational answers, logical answers. There are no demons………just man, and his wide range of emotions.”
His mocking reaction to other users who believe in demons or the devil can be seen in several comments, including on “Woman Has Seizure During Jeff Probst Interview on Red Carpet”:
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser16: It is the devil in them I say! Lucifers demons mind control! haha nah I am just kidding it is sad and a brain disorder.
This brief comment is itself reminiscent of a topic “Psychopathy?” started by Smiggles on the Columbine forum:
“Is there any distinction between the usage of “He had the devil in him” and the marginally more nuanced “He was afflicted by psychopathy”?”
fuckcomments’s obsessiveness over religion, grounded in his belief that all religions are falsehoods, is most evident in the comments under a video “Kreator – The Pestilence”.
What ensues is one the longest exchanges that fuckcomments ever engaged in, which involved a rotating cast of commenters all butting heads with him. Also, according to contemporaneous comments from other users, one of the comments from fuckcomments was at some point the “highest rated” comment on the page, which may have contributed to fuckcomments’s heightened attention to this page:
YoutubeUser18 4 years ago · I’m christian and this is my favorite song now that i’ve listened to it. Strange huh?
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser18 – not really, in the bible god floods the entire planet killing EVERYONE, then goes on multiple baby killing murder sprees, destroys entire towns and villages, kills masses of innocent people and orders men to kill innocent people, GOD fits into this hellish image more than SATAN ever did, satan and the 7 people he killed in the bible, who deserved to die VS God and the 2million+ humans he slaughters in the bible. Haha and we are supposed to believe SATAN is the evil one? lies..
YoutubeUser19 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: The only evil god is the god of Islam; allah.
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser19: HAHA what? The christian god already flooded the planet killing everybody in the bible, slaughtered towns of people who did nothing wrong. HAHA God is the most evil creature ever, even your religion just scares you into following his rule. Making it seem like he is so evil that if you do anything to wrong him he will just slaughter you and torture you for eternity, haha some loving god. Don’t fucking try to bullshit me you subhuman pukes, drop your fairy tale beliefs and join reality.
YoutubeUser19 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: @fuckcomments Some people believe in god of order, not necessarily in the god of prayers.. Like why all things are in harmony with each other and stuff.
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser19: harmony? In this world everything works like this. You have one thing, and you have another thing, and they mix together to create a reaction. And at the end of the reaction there can be a new thing, or the same thing. It isn’t all that complicated. It just keeps going from there and evolving, creating new chemicals and species and behaviors etc etc etc etc etc etc That isn’t order its just reactions between 2 different things creating a new thing which reacts with something else to create.
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser19: Just like a computer is 1 and 0. Yet look at your computer screen, it looks a hell of a lot more complicated then 1 and 0, but it isn’t, 1 and 0 can be used to create anything you want. On and Off, 1 and 0, x and y, they have unlimited combinations which all result in creating whatever you want them to.
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments They have already created artificial viruses and life using computers and chemicals. From thin air. There is no fucking god of anything. Just humans are the gods of brainwashing.
YoutubeUser20 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: Oh master of the universe, won’t you please tell us more about how you think you know everything?
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser20 : Yes I will, A magical god made everything, but don’t ask what made him because he just appeared from nothing! but it would be totally illogical for us to appear from nothing, but not god right? Only beings of ultimate power and magic can appear from nothing, us humans are far more complex then that and could never have just appeared. I don’t know everything but I sure as fuck can tell when some dumb fuck humans think some magical fairy made everything when there’s no such thing.
YoutubeUser21 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments The guy that can and did kill more than 2 million completely effortless just to get a kick out of it is the guy that gets to make the rules. Doesn’t really matter how much of a dick he is.”
YoutubeUser22 4 years ago · in reply to fuckcomments: that’s cause you don’t get the full picture. it’s okay, you’re not the inly one with their head up their ass, the whole damn world gots their head in their ass now.”
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser22: HAHA…..yes…..it is everyone else that does not get the picture, but your tiny group that meets up every Sunday and who thinks they make up the entire worlds population is nothing but a little cult. There is no god never was, never was a satan or god or any of that non sense. Old tales from simple simple minds. Just like the simple minds that congregate on sunday, that is ok, some of them are nice, except their disgusting belief that everyone but them is going to hell. suck it.
YoutubeUser22 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: single minded fucks liek yu don’t get it and never will. what you don’t see, i ain’t even gonna explain it to your dumb ass. everyone has to pay, and when we die, we will be judged, on way or another. you got your head in your ass you can’t even get it right. suffer in hell motherfucker, when you get there, you’ll be sorry. to accept god is so simple, yet iggnoant fusk liek you make it a big deal, all you have to do is do it.”
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser22: We will be dead. Without our brains, we cannot think, we cannot see, hear, taste, touch or feel. We are nothing, like before we were born. To die is to lose everything and have no other chance at thought. God? He is not even a part of my world or anything that exists. You couldn’t even imagine that thought. You were brainwashed not me, it’s ok, brainwashing is proven scientifically so do not feel so bad about it. A magical god in the sky made you, but he didnt need a god to make him?”
YoutubeUser23 3 years ago · in reply to fuckcomments: Personally for me, I believe in God and that’s about as far as it goes. I respect your beliefs as well but I think we can all come to an agreement that Religion is getting blown way out of proportion nowadays. They are making it seem like if you sin that you go to hell. Everybody sins but I think that setting a standard of living in a religion is completely idiotic. We are intended to live free. No matter what, Religion is a reason for people to shove beliefs down peoples throats”
fuckcomments 3 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser23: Well when I see him I will punch god in the face and tell him what a piece of shit he is before he sends me to hell for all eternity.
YoutubeUser24 3 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: A magical god in the sky made you, but he didnt need a god to make him?”” the way I see it, this is true. Before anything existed, some kind of higher level of a being we call “”god”” was there. He was never born, he was never dead, he was always there. Why wasn’t he ever created at a certain point in time? Because back before anything existed, time never existed either, so that means ‘God’ was never was born, he always was and is alive. U can believe me or not. That’s how I view it”
fuckcomments 3 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser24 : HAHA so wait a minute….rocks, metal, chemicals, and humans cannot appear from “”nothing”” but a super magical god with unlimited powers can? Your logic is so backwards? It is like you are using god to explain how we got here because you think we couldn’t just appear from nothing yet at the same time you accept that some ultimate being appeared from the same nothing. To be honest you believe in fairy tales as reality, it is ok I am jealous. I wish I could think so backwards.bliss”
It is worth noting that this user’s theory of the afterlife, “Without our brains, we cannot think, we cannot see, hear, taste, touch or feel. We are nothing, like before we were born. To die is to lose everything and have no other chance at thought”, is consistent with the one Lanza expressed as Smiggles, on the thread “Post-mortem disposal of bodily remains”:
It seems like an irrelevant question to be concerned about. No one can obtain knowledge about what happens after death, nor if anything is required to do for the deceased. If some
ritual was necessary, no one could know about it nor have any knowledge about the requirements of it. Perhaps there’s a magical platypus who requires that you burn a wooden effigy of a hamster so that the deceased can ride it to the gates of Valhalla.
From observing other people who have died, the only conclusion which can be reached is that nothing happens. Treating death as if it’s the end of everything would be the most prudent course of action because believing that something happens is contrary to the observable world of the life which you are certain about having, thus deluding you into behaving in a way which could negatively impact your life.
On the Columbine forum in February 2012, Lanza posted to the thread “You know what I hate!?!?” and expressed his frustration with “life apologists”:
“I hate how life-apologists say (or rather, the very few of them who do anything other than mock you),”Life isn’t all suffering. What about the simple pleasures, like eating ice cream?”
They always use that example. Even if I didn’t recognize the flaws in their assertion, when I think of ice cream, I can only see a repugnant lump of pus crushed out of cows’ bloody nipples, who spend their entire lives confined in filth, where they’re periodically raped so that they’re incessantly pregnant, after which their calves are seized from them, destined to live the life of veal, with their only relief being an early death. From there, I always ride the pessimism train down different tracks until it inevitably leads me to contemplating over 500 million years of animals cannibalizing each other. Excuse me for not being thrilled by the extra jimmies on my ice cream cone.”
A strikingly similar reaction is seen from fuckcomments on the page for “Hook soundtrack-Flight to Neverland by john Williams”, in response to another user’s optimistic comment:
YoutubeUser25 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser26: ahh, i try my personal best day to day, i mean we all feel stress u know…but sometimes, if u can really put enuff energy into it…seems possible to see the good in almost anything =)
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser25: Shut up sheltered life boy you dumb fuck, can you not see you are just lucky, some people live a mental tormented hell you could not imagine. They hear people spout that stupid shit to them all the time it only works if your life isn’t a fucking shithole piece of fuck. So shut up cause you are bullshitting everyone. Enjoy your lucky life and shut the fuck up with the “”there is good in everything”” cause there isn’t unless you live some sheltered life, so have fun and enjoy.”
One video, “Steve O. My neighbour is two-faced“, is of a man explaining why he is suspicious of his neighbor, whom he identifies as “Steve O.” fuckcomments addresses the star of the video directly in this comment:
fuckcomments 4 years ago: The reason you should be able to rationalize the fact that you have mental problems is: You say you understand what Steve’s actions were one day because of the certain way he smiled at you. That is impossible. Even you can agree. There is no way to tell what a person has done by the way they smile. also wonder why Steve is up at 3 am? Many people stay up all night, or cannot sleep. You wonder where Steve get’s money from? Could be welfare, or plumbing…You dont need a van to be a plumber.
Adam Lanza expressed a nearly identical sentiment to a Yale psychiatrist in 2006.
AL’s mother told the Yale psychiatrist that he used to look at people but did not anymore. AL then asked rhetorically, “Why should I have to.” When the doctor explained all of the information that a person could learn by looking at a facial expression, such as a smile, AL stated that people could interpret smiles differently: “Some primates smile when they are frightened.”
-Child Advocate report, pg. 49
There are many, many more instances where fuckcomments’s viewing habits and writings overlap with Adam Lanza. We will revisit this process of conclusively identifying this commenter as the shooter in Part III; for now, I think I’ve made my point.
Part II: Warning Signs
The most alarming statements from Adam Lanza, writing as “fuckcomments”, are when he makes overt (though never specific) threats of violence, expresses concern for his own mental state, or especially when he displays an ongoing fixation that connects gun violence with children. Reading these comments, we see in retrospect missed opportunities to stop the Sandy Hook shooting. We see a mind that is clearly already on the path to mass murder and suicide.
It is important here to note that fuckcomments displays a tendency, on nearly every subject, to express wildly contradictory opinions. He will demonize something on one comment page, and then praise it on another, or mock other users who express sentiments that he agreed with in other instances. Whether this is due to wild mood swings, changing his mind over time, mental illness, or simply an intentional attempt to cover his tracks, I couldn’t say. It does seem appropriate, though, to keep this in mind before taking any single comment he says as truthful, unless it matches what we already know he did at Sandy Hook.
Threats of Violence
On the page for the video “School Shootings and the Internet”, fuckcomments boasts about his plans to shoot students at a school and then commit suicide. He then argues with other users over his ability to go through with it (also, note that his argument regarding “the peak” of school shootings is consistent with his final post on the Columbine forum from February 2012):
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser32: this is silly, how the fuck am I supposed to operate all this shit a camera and live web feeds when im trying to kill everyone?? no, too much baggage, plus if im going to kill myself and everyone with me, why would i care about you faggots witnessing it all happen? fuck you. Hopefully i get to shoot you. Fuck your realtime streaming fuck bullshit, I NEED ALL MY HANDS AND ALL MY WITS *BANG BANG BANG BANG* Plus your “”prediction”” has and is already happening, we are near the peak! ;)
YoutubeUser324 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: i guess i should start carrying my gat to school.
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser32: that would be a really good idea. it may be bad because with all the students running and hiding you will be singled out with your gun and all focus is on you, you would probably have a better chance running your ass off to be honest, but if you wanted to stand toe to toe with a complete psycho who is well armed and ready to kill everyone then by all means try your luck, you better score a head shot or a spinal shot or a heart shot because hes gonna keep shooting no matter what happens.
YoutubeUser32 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: you mean you are so frail you can’t carry a netbook with a dongle in a back pack and a webcam clipped to a gun???All mouth and no bang!!!!!
YoutubeUser32 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: actually there has already been a uni shooting stopped by students who went to their cars, got their guns and went back into the campus.
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser32: please tell me where and when, thank you.
YoutubeUser32 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: Appalachian School of Law shooting 16th Jan 2002 – Armed Students helped restrain the shooter.
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser32: Thank you. I will have to study how to overcome these armed students >:)”
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser32: haha a 43 year old man went to a school of law and was subdued by a US Marine and 2 off duty police officers, they were students though. Note to self: Do not shoot up a school of LAW.
YoutubeUser32 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: Keep in mind: Do cops, soldiers and ex-soldiers go to universities? Answer yes. When studying in north america I met several. Conditions that can exist at any campus Does this mean that members of the public won’t shoot back? They may just do…. So you will need to put in plenty of playstation time :-]
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser32: @shuntyardalchemy Haha i got 20+ years in killin practice
His “20+ years of killin practice” is apparently a confirmation that he regards playing video games as valid experience in preparing for committing actual murder.
On other videos, such as “Heckler & Koch Mp5K” he claims, again sounding to be at least partially in jest, that video games have trained him to kill. (NOTE: this is one instance where only a portion of the conversation is available; a user responds to something that fuckcomments wrote, but what that comment was is lost, though the context makes it clear that Lanza had said something about enjoying killing people in real life as well as in video games):
YoutubeUser33 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: not gunna lie you sound a little crazy, you shouldnt like killing people. liking guns is ok i like them too, but not killing people.
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser33: Well if you are gonna pretend to shoot people you must at least like it a little in your head.
YoutubeUser33 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: well i mean i like getting kills in a video game but not killing people,
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser33: well one day your mind will get warped from pretending to kill so much you must kill! KILL!! KILL!!!
On “How to make any girl falls in love with you by hypnosis!”, Lanza expresses interest in murdering his own mother.
YoutubeUser35 5 years ago: Hmmm. The title of the video led me to believe that I would receive some sort of lesson. In fact, that was a misconception experienced on my behalf, and I’m sure most would agree with me. That’s not to say I didn’t learn a lesson. I learned that there is no lesson to be gleaned from this particular video. I enthusiastically give this video two thumbs down.
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser35 : haha aww are you going to have to keep not hypnotizing people to molest them? how sad.
YoutubeUser35 3 years ago in reply to fuckcomments: Nah. I’ll just keep getting it from your mom. She really likes me, and I didn’t even have to hypnotize her. Just be myself is really all I had to do. Sorry it took so long to post this. I just now bothered to read your drivel.”
fuckcomments 3 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser35 : We will fuck her together! Then kill her and dispose of the corpse!
This would seem just an effort to elicit shock, except that within one year of this comment, Lanza would indeed claim his own mother has his first murder victim.
Returning to the subject of the NIU shooter, on “Northern Illinois University” fuckcomments gives an short but alarming response when another user tells him what his reaction would be if there were a shooting at his own school (Lanza was once a student at Sandy Hook Elementary):
YoutubeUser38 7 years ago: I can’t believe how insensitive you people can be, It is very hurtfull to hear people speaking this way after we were just faced with a tragic event. We need support, we don’t need rude inconsiderate people cutting down on us If you don’t have anyhting nice to say, don’t saY ANYTHING…….let us grieve our losses. If it happened at your school you would be upset too
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser38: Would I?
Anti-Depressants and Violence
In perhaps the most tragic revelation to come from these comments, on “Can Antidepressants Cause Violence?” Lanza expressed fear that taking the anti-depressant Celexa would cause him to go through with his fantasy of committing a mass shooting:
fuckcomments 4 years ago : I have fantasies of grabbing my guns and hunting down everyone that fucked my life over…The doctor prescribed Celexa to me after Ive been having these fantasies. I have not taken the medication because I am afraid I might lose my self control if I take the drug. What the fuck do I do?
We know, of course, that Adam Lanza did indeed “grab his guns” and go on a killing spree approximately two years after this comment was posted.
We also know that he was indeed prescribed Celexa, by a Registered Nurse at Yale Child Studies Center Advanced Practice, in 2007.
Caption: CSP Official Report, Book 7, file 00017458
While there’s no indication that Lanza told the nurse he had violent fantasies or intentions, she did report (when interviewed by police after the Sandy Hook shooting) that Lanza had “asked questions about schizophrenia and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, but was unwilling to share if he was experiencing any of the symptoms of the disorders.” The act of asking about schizophrenia, particularly from the perspective of someone actually suffering from the disorder, may be consistent with fuckcomments phrasing that he was given the prescription “after I’ve been having these fantasies.”
According to both the report from the Connecticut State Police (above) and the report from Connecticut Office of the Child Advocate, Nancy Lanza gave her son the medication for a very short period (or at least claims that she did, or perhaps Adam merely claimed that he actually took it) but then ceased giving him the medicine due to the supposed side effects:
Immediately after prescribing the medication, the clinician received a call from the mother reporting that AL was “unable to raise his arm.” Mrs. Lanza stated that AL was attributing this symptom to the medication. An email from Mrs. Lanza to the clinic indicated that AL took the medication for three days. Mrs. Lanza wrote an email that AL experienced immediate and diverse symptoms associated with the medication, including “decreased appetitive and nausea . . . dizziness . . . disorientation,” disjointed speech, and sweating. She stated that “he couldn’t think. He sat in his room, doing nothing.” – Child Advocate Report, pg 55
It should also be noted that Celexa is the only antidepressant that fuckcomments specifically claims to have been prescribed. It is also the only antidepressant that Adam Lanza is confirmed to have been prescribed.
We find these concerns about the physical side effects of antidepressants on other videos that fuckcomments posted to. On “Kayla on Ativan 2”, he comments twice (he is replying to another user and apparently adding to what they wrote, but the other user’s comments have since been erased): :
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser41: and makes your eyes droopy and makes you knock over things, drop things, ativan is a serious drug what the hell are you talking about, you may be too far gone into the ativan land to even know its affecting you so much.
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser41: Haha nope. I do not want to become a drug addict like yourself. Not on Ativan at least… That shit fucks up your brain and thought patterns. It also is extremely physically addictive and withdrawals are enough to make dumb humans stuck in a cycle thinking the withdrawal symptoms are the symptoms they are treating with the drug. Therefore they continue the use of benzos like dummies. Have fun.
He posts practically an identical comment to the first on a video “No Ativan!!! Lesson learned!”:
fuckcomments 4 years ago: That shit fucks you up for days. 1 pill. Makes your eyes all droopy and makes you drop things, knock little things, accidents happen and you get so frustrated, FUCK ATIVAN AND FUCK DOCTORS hehe
Another antidepressant medication, Luvox, is cause of concern for fuckcomments, and he frequently ties it to the actions of Columbine killer Eric Harris. In this instance, another user posted a video reply to the above video where fuckcomments had confessed his violent fantasies and fear of taking Celexa. On “Re: Can Antidepressants Cause Violence?” Lanza continued on this same subject:
“fuckcomments 4 years ago: god damn woman you are on this shit far too long, Luvox? god damn, I feel sorry for you. Luvox creates thoughts of killing and violence, it is what Eric Harris was on when he shot up columbine, reading his journal you can see that over time his fantasies of killing became more vivid and detailed. His anger grew out of control even though it was prescribed to lesson his anger. I was prescribed Celexa recently and the bottle is sitting there but I am afraid to take it.”
The subject once again is brought up on “Columbine-Mark-Donna-Taylor-2008.mov”, where fuckcomments contradicts himself (shootings have “nothing to do” with prescription drugs, but he is “afraid to take them”) in between expressing concern for the mental well-being of a Columbine survivor, Mark Taylor:
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser44: it has nothing to do with prescription drugs. It has more to do with anger and being nice guys, they were nice guys, believe it or not, drugs do not cause this behavior, armies killed massively in the past on no drugs at all, people were tortured and maimed by humans on nothing at all. Just because you all can’t accept that does not mean it isnt reality. Humans KILL. Eric and Dylan probably never hurt anything in their life, they never felt the guilt, the remorse. maybe when they shot themselves
fuckcomments 4 years ago: WHAT THE FUCK IS MARK TAYLOR ON IN THAT LAST INTERVIEW!?…uhh mark? where are you man?
YoutubeUser44 4 years ago in reply to fuckcomments:look at the studies, it does happen. prescription drugs has more to do with it then bullies. if they were bullied their whole lives then why didnt they kill earlier or lash out in some other way. it doesnt happen in all cases but trust me it does happen. i have a slight form of OCD i was prescribed celaxa. i was on 20mg then moved up to 60, after a few weeks on that i had obsessive thoughts of suicide. some ppl become suicidal or homicidal or both especially in teens
fuckcomments 4 years ago in reply to YoutubeUser44: yea the doctor tried to give me celexa and I just laughed. Its sitting in my drawer beside all the other bullshit pills they gave me, im afraid to take them because i am one angry man haha. Im smart enough to have never taken one of the pills though, my depression is bad, but i only see these pills making it worse, especially since i already kind of obsess over suicidal thoughts. Never took any meds though, thats why i got the meds in the first place.
This is not the only time that fuckcomments directs his writings to Mark Taylor or his family. On “1 Columbine Conspiracy”, a video apparently hosted by the Taylor family, Lanza wrote several comments, demonstrating his knowledge of the Columbine case:
fuckcomments 3 years ago: Holy fuck get him on disability benefits for god sake. The truth is that Columbine has nothing to do with walshbuttrape.txt That file was created by a civilian, not a police officer. It was named by a civilian. They were investigating the claim and they named the file that. It is not authentic. The drawing can be simply that of being arrested. Judging by journal entries, Dylan mentions suicide and mass shooting suicide in 1997, a year before their arrest. The arrest just pissed them off –
fuckcomments 3 years ago: and made them feel just a bit more worthless, a bit more dehumanized, more like failures. There is no evidence supporting this claim. This is the only logical explanation the poor woman can attach herself to. I believe it is wrong but not impossible, however, to latch onto it like she has shows she does not know what she is talking about. I have researched Columbine for 10 years and I do not believe these claims are true. “”Witch craft””? It was a suicide with no reason really.
fuckcomments 3 years ago: Donna, the reason they shot your son, who also was not shot first, Rachel and Richard Castaldo were, was because Dylan Klebold wanted to kill himself in 1997 judging by his journal. It would seem he came up with the suicide plan and Eric Harris was all to excited to join him because he too felt his life was not worth living. Eric also blamed bullying from the PREVIOUS YEAR at Columbine for his actions. Kids with guns, suicidal thoughts, and a bad idea. Your son was just in the wrong place.
fuckcomments 3 years ago: Also try to get your son on disability for depression and PTSD and anxiety as I am sure he is suffering from these things. They should be able to find him a place to live. If he wants to take the meds, then they will most likely pay for them for him. I am sure something like this is in place for someone in his condition. Forget the massacre and WHY, it was not your sons fault, he was just unlucky to be there at that moment. Teen suicide is common. Their motive was suicide.
Taunting Columbine Students
In contradiction to the empathy apparently shown to shooting survivors above, fuckcomments twice posts cruel and sadistic Columbine shooting references to videos hosted by more recents students at Columbine.
On “Columbine Highschool Musical 2011”, he posts:
…”peekaboo” being a quote from one of the Columbine killers, uttered to a student hiding under a desk in the school’s library, just before shooting and killing them.
On “AHS Warriors Girls Lacrosse – vs. Columbine – 2011-03-19”, which consists of footage of a Lacrosse game played by Columbine’s girls team in 2011, Lanza writes:
“Everybody with a white hat STAND UP!”
…another quote from the Columbine killers, shouted in the library where they murdered most of their victims. “White hats” were supposedly an indicator of students involved in varsity sports at Columbine High School in 1999.
Shooting Through Glass
fuckcomments posted in the comments section of the video entitle “NIJ IIIA Bulletproof glass vs. 12 gauge Shotgun 00 Buckshot, 12 Gauge Slug, AR-15 .223, 9mm” (cache here). The title and the content of the video are by themselves noteworthy; in the video, a sheet of “bullet-proof” glass is subjected to abuse from several different firearms, including a 12-gauge shotgun, and an AR-15, and a 9mm pistol (eventually, the glass fails.)
Lanza brought all three of these weapon types (plus a 10mm Glock) to Sandy Hook on December 14th, 2012.
This becomes more disturbing when we see the comment that Lanza posted to this video:
fuckcomments 4 years ago : If I was trying to kill you and you were behind the glass I would shoot it many times until it broke…
At Sandy Hook, Lanza indeed shot through glass in order to reach his targets. Perhaps, at the time he wrote this comment, he suspected the windows at Sandy Hook Elementary School might have been bullet-proof (they weren’t.) If so, the weapons he brought to the school, in light of this video, reflect his intentions to break through the glass even if it were “bullet-proof.”
The conclusion of this four-part story will be posted sometime next week, and will cover fuckcomments’s interest in firearms, connecting violence and children, the effect of internet access on the mentally ill, World of Warcraft, and his preoccupation with “the nineties.” It will also specifically address some of Lanza’s efforts as fuckcomments to conceal his identity (such claiming to be from Canada, or to be older than he really was.)
In the meantime, I will have to address something that I did not intend to be part of this story, and which caused this story to be delayed as well as to be posted in two halves: the “fuckcomments” account was live and viewable to any user while I researched this story over the last week… right up until yesterday, April 29th, when it suddenly disappeared. As of today, If you attempt to view fuckcomments’ profile, Youtube will tell you that it does not exist:
…but a simple checking of the Web Archive will show that it was indeed a real account:
Since the account has been removed, all of its comments have also disappeared. Because of this, I had to – at the last minute – go through this post and change all of the links to cached versions of pages (when available) instead of the live pages; this half of the story represents how far I got in fixing the links with the time I have available at the moment.
I do not know exactly why Youtube erased this account or how it was brought to their attention; I did not contact them. It might be a coincidence, or an automated process triggered by my accessing so many of their comments in a brief period of time. Either way, the disappearance of the account doesn’t matter, since I have already saved and backed up all of the comments I located from this account.
No one needs to take my word for it that these comments are genuine, either. It can be easily verified that the comments I quoted were really on Youtube: simply enter a Google search for the first few words of a given comment, inside quotation marks, as well as “fuckcomments”, also in quotation marks:
On the resulting page, look for a green “down” arrow next to the URL. Click it, and if the option “cache” appears, click that. Then you will see the comments page as I viewed it while writing this story.
However, as with the Google cache of ShockedBeyondBelief, these cached pages will be gone for good soon enough, probably a matter of weeks. If Google is deleting this content manually (and I don’t know if they are or not) then it could be gone at any second. But it will be too late.
To be concluded.
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